dilemmas and wrong directions
February 22, 2007 at 9:05 pm | In faith and religion | Leave a CommentI heard a song on K-love yesterday that talked about a girl going “100 mph in the wrong direction”. It was “Does anybody hear her?” by Casting Crowns. It says she is “another two years older and three more steps behind”. It reminded me of some people I know who seem like they have just been stuck in the same spot for years or even worse, a few steps behind where they were a few years ago. Not only did this get me thinking about some of the people I know (who shall remain nameless) but it also got me to thinking about myself. While I don’t feel like I am headed in the wrong direction, some of my actions and choices are not helping me get where I want to go. So why do I keep doing them? I also realized that perhaps I have not set the best example for some non-Christians in my life. While I go to church, read the Bible and make (for the most-part) ethical Christian choices, I still do some things and engage in a style of talking and crude humor that gives non-believers something negative to point at. I need to work at knocking that off if I want to be able to tell my story and lead others to Christ. My heart for Christ on the inside has changed but not all of my outside actions have been reflecting that change. Some of the changes I have made are not visible, so I need to work on the one’s that people who I can potentially have an impact on can see. I realized the power that comes with working with younger people and having people (of any age) look up to you.
More thoughts on the song and the person running 100 mph in the wrong direction….
A teacher in college was talking about dilemmas. A true dilemma, he said, is when you have two choices and neither one of them is more appealing than the other (or they are both equally unappealing). But what he said next was what has stuck with me. He said any movement, even in the wrong direction, is better than no movement at all. If you are at a fork in the road and you head off in one direction and it turns out to be the dead end then at least you know and can turn around and head back in the right direction. But if you stay stuck in the middle you will never find out. So I will set out to head in the right direction and if I chose the wrong path, hopefully I dont go down it at 100 mph or crash. I am sure I will take little detours but need to keep focusing on pluggin away towards my final destination. peace.
my favorite movie…Patch Adams
February 18, 2007 at 2:39 pm | In faith and religion, work | Leave a CommentI just recently had the chance to watch my favorite movie again for the first time in awhile; PATCH ADAMS. People are often surprised when I tell them it is one of my favorite movies, probably my most favorite. I told the young people I was watching it with, who were astonished by my ability to quote it’s lines, that I watched it everytime I wanted to drop out of graduate school. While it was difficult to explain to them that night why I did that, I have not been able to stop thinking about it since. Patch was not willing to let ANYTHING get in the way of his dream. He attacked his school work with fervor because it was his PASSION. He devoured his text books way before the rest of his class, but learning was just one of his passions. The way I most relate to Patch is that we share a passion, getting to know people intimately and using that information to make a profound difference in their lives. Patch also realized that people (particularly medical professionals) were afraid of this intimate connection because of this; getting close enough to someone to have an impact on their life inevitably also has an impact on your life. He asks what happens if we (doctors) become connected with another person (patients) like this, will we explode? I too burn with a passion to have that connection with others and make a difference. Nothing, including losing the love of his life, and a college dean that was out to get him would stop Patch. Grad school was very difficult for me. There were many times I wanted to give up and quit. My father-in-law and mother died while I was in grad school and I began to have extreme marital problems. I watched this movie at least 50 times. Apparently it is based on a true story. I don’t know which parts were real and which were Hollywood, but he loves helping people so much that he does it free. Sometimes I wish I could do my job for free. My life was once devastated by getting fired from my job for no apparent reason, without explanation. Like Patch, I became depressed, not quite near ending up in a mental institution like he did, but depressed enough to spend about four months in poor-me syndrome, drowning my sorrows in double cheeseburgers and by sleeping all day. Suddenly a window of opportunity came about for me to go back to college and pursue my dream of becoming a therapist. My academic advisor for my first bachelor’s degree told me I would never make it as a counselor. Do you think perhaps she knew I was the kind of person who would stop at nothing to prove her wrong. Although my job is far from perfect, I live for helping people. This past few weeks I even had the opportunity to share my faith in counseling sessions with a few remarkable people who saw my diploma from a Christian college hanging on the wall and it sparked a wonderful time of sharing. Sometimes I wonder how to help people who don’t share my faith in Jesus. What else is there to put our hope and trust in? When my grandparents and mother died I was very, very sad, but at the same time I confidently smiled and thought about a song, “Tis so sweet to trust in Jesus”. Well, realizing I got quite off topic here…This is just one reason why I love the movie Patch Adams. I love knowing that I shared my passion for this movie with several young people whom I love and admire. I hope it effected them in some way. Above all things, I hope they get this one thing from it:
Figure out what you are passionate about. Learn everything you will need to know about it and then don’t let ANYTHING or ANYONE stand between you and your dream. With passion, determination and God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE! peace…..
2/14/07
February 16, 2007 at 12:00 am | In marriage and family, sports | 1 CommentI think I have disliked Valentines Day since 1991. Its pretty much made up by the people who sell cards, flowers, candy along with Sweetest Day. As far as I can remember I only ever had one memorable Valentine’s Day and that was 1993 in Youngstown, Ohio. I allowed myself to have some dark chocolate treats today (not that much different from any other day). I am totally exhausted today from spending the night at the sleep clinic last night. The lady shouldn’t have said anything at all but she commented that my CPAP level was way off. Wouldn’t tell me anymore specifics other than I didn’t start dreaming until half an hour before she woke me up to drive home in the storm. Seems kind of cruel that I have to continue at a bad setting for two more weeks till I get my results and hopefully my new machine. Off to bed early. Big day tomorrow with a second round sectional game against Geneseo. GO ICE DEVILS!
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